daVinChi Code: I wanna be...

[I guess, Anonymous was the greatest thinker of them all. He must be the contemporary of "Pythagoras of Samos" or "Anaxagoras of Clazomenae" He seems to be from Greece or from those early European cultures like the Greek.. He is my favourite thinker, writer and philosopher.
Enough of this "garbage" and let me start writing what I started writing in the first place.]

I wanted to be a whole lot of things when I was a child. ( If you think there is nothing different about it, let me tell you that I was as normal as you were as a child). I wanted to be a bus driver, A train driver, A pilot, A sweet shop owner(for obvious reaasons), A policeman, A thief, A politician( a little bit of redundancy is allowed in such writings!!), A king, A beggar, A richman, A film star, A cricketer, An American,then later, A software engineer ( or may be the other way round!!), an art director, film director and what not. Did I mention being a doctor? So, I mentioned it. OK. Oh I did not yet stop the Garbage. Did I?

Ok then, lets get on with the garbage. Its always better to ask questions for which you have an anwer ready. I am going to do that now. "Why did my preferences for professions change? What was the reason behind me dumping the pilot for the policeman? Why did this happen?" May be because I was growing up. May be, I was getting quixotic,or may be more practical.

We dream about being many things in our life. Actually, we hope that we will become someone. But, most of us, do nothing about it. Just stay hoping for the best.Hoping that something or someone coming from the great mountains will help us be what we want to be.

I think I just have to mention one thing about me here. I never had the big and famous problem of "To be or not to be". It was rather a mundane question like "What to be?" or "How to be ?" that ate into my brains.

I became an engineer because that was the "in thing" those days. And just because everybody wanted to be an "Engineer". I really don't know what I learnt during my college days, or what made me an "Engineer". I was still the same dumb boy who knew nothing about electronics even after 4 years of "technical inputs" from the profs and my "hard work". I was a hardly-working boy then as I am now.( No! There ain't no grammatical errors in this statement. I never put in effort. I told you I was dumb!!)

I didn't know why, but I was feeling dissatisfied and empty inside of me. I said to myself "You can be more". "I have to be all I can be", I said to myself. ( It's me talking to myself. So I can use 1st or 2nd person or whatever I want to!!). The only thing that seemed to be challenging was going abroad for my higher studies.( My American Dream-coming soon..). I did what needs to be done for that. Got into some University in Cincinnati.
I was very happy for myself, but was not very sure about going(In action: my usual tendency to dump!).

One rainy morning, I saw, from my window, my friend (from the neighbourhood) running behind a taxi very desperately. I wondered what was it that was so important in his life that he made him so anxious. (considering it was 5:30 in the morning). Later that day I asked about the incident and he told that he was going to a coaching center for DOG(Dollars Of Gold). I was aware about DOG but was never curious about it. Then I told to myself, "If it was a such a coveted thing, why not covet it myself?". Slowly, but surely, and unknowingly, I was getting to like the concept of management( the money in it). Actually, I liked the idea of facing the toughest exam in India, (may be after IITJEFF). The B-challenge struck me. Then 'the question' was answered. "This is what I wanna be".The trivial question of "how to be?" was answered earlier than I expected. (Again, It was someone else who 'inspired' me.)

That was it. I again, as always, hardly worked after the initial burst of enthusiasm. Thankfully got into an IIM. Now, I sometimes think "that wasn't that tough either", "Should've done something else" and things like that..

So, The Shakespearean question still remains. "To B or Not to B".

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